I got out of a really serious relationship a couple months ago and i was crushed, i felt like I put one hundred and ten percent of me into it, just to have it taken away. I was angry at the world, I didn't want to face anyone, all I wanted was my baby back. I felt like I had nothing left to offer anyone because all those things I had to give were used up, and taken away from me. It killed me seeing that boy on a daily basis but eventually I learned to deal with it, and started to move on.
He saw that I was moving on and I guess a part of him snapped and he pulled me back in, and as soon as I let my guard down he broke my heart, again.
I listened to I told ya over and over and over and over again because it made me feel like I wasn't alone, like I'm not the only one who has delt with that kind of pain. The lyrics in this song carry's so much truth and emotion and strength.
It told me that sometimes you need to let go of the thing that means most to you, as much as it hurts, as much as you want it, as much as you think you need it. I knew that it was over, I really did, but I just had so much hope for us, I prayed that it would work but deep down I knew that we couldn't be together. And that it would always end the same way, him lookin out for number one, and me broken hearted.
Somehow I thought he would change, because he had already lost me once and he convinced me that he just needed time apart to really appreciate me... And when I took him back, I proved myself wrong, he once again took what was left of me like it was nothing. I knew I should haver listened to my gut, but my love for him overpowered my instincts.
About a week ago he told me he missed me and he felt that he made a mistake, again. And I have no doubt in my mind that if I didn't feel such a deep connection to the message in this song, that I would have given him more chances. I know in my heart that im better off without him. And that I'm doing the right thing for me, its time for me to look out for number one.
I personally don't think your favorite song should just be any random song with a good beat, you should be able to relate to it, it should get that little hamster in your brain running :P. It should inspire you, and hit you like a ton of bricks every time you listen to the words, it should make you believe, should give you hope. And thats exactly what this song has done for me, it has given me hope, strength, faith in myself, and respect for myself.
Im done running back to him, Im done hurting, and im done being weak.
TK, your words touched my heart and I really thank you..
